I love it so much I want to do it again 🙂 there is only one flaw and I don’t know that anyone but me would see it 😉 I may be the only one who likes seeing all of these but you’re stuck with it 😛
You know when I see someone that is “larger than normal” I usually think (to myself) I hope I never let myself get that big…. well here I stand at 300 lbs. I think the thing that works against me is i don’t “look” like I weigh that much. No one would guess my weight (I am seriously considering going to one of those places where they try to guess weight and age – cause I don’t look 37 either). But there it is the stark truth… I am fat!!! (and not in that I’m a skinny girl but think I am fat way….)
It starts with a decision to change. Some say this is the hardest step, but I have decided this so many times and unfortunately it usually ends with me in agony… sleeping a big chunk of the day. So I have started (again) this time with a little more support than normal and a determination to make it (VERY slowly). My goal… lose 70 lbs in 2 years. I wanted something attainable and not to make myself feel like a failure (which is usually what happens).
So then I started thinking…. how can I lose weight???? Oh and with no money cause I have no money… so videos that’s cheap! But you know what … they don’t have work out videos for “fat” girls. They have the token chunky girl and I suppose it is to inspire us to lose weight but show me a fat girl that can’t get anywhere near the movement and then maybe I will be able to work on it.
I also have trouble with the eating part of it!! My absolutely wonderful sister suggested I go vegan… yeah right?!?!?!?! I couldn’t possibly go with out steak. But I have worked on cutting out fast food (this is huge!!) and I now count calories…. MyFitnessPal is freaking amazing! So I am doing baby steps… to prove that I can… and to get over all the times I have seen those very frustrating quotes about how I can do things but just don’t … it’s a LIE (at least for me)
But my best friend through all of this is my pain meds… otherwise I wouldn’t be this far…. and so the battle continues… one day, one step at a time…
As a “Fat” girl I love my sweets and could use easy good delicious substitutes and don’t feel like there really is anything that will take their place. However there is the possibility that I could find something to tide me over MOST of the time and have the treats be rare!! I figure …. start by replacing the biggest calorie things and work my way down to the really healthy stuff!! This might just be the first step….
Pintrest has these many “ice cream” recipes that use bananas. I never thought that they would be so good!! My only change would be to peel the banana before freezing them 😉 ….. I can not wait to do this more!!!
This is a “Smash Journal” it is supposed to be used for basically scrapbooking in journal form… I LOVE it…. I have decided to do one for Kevin and I. This simple page took me FOREVER lol but I finished. We went to beer fest last October it was our first real time out together. The pages below are the different phases I went through….