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About 2bbarefootin

So I am not terribly funny; but recently one of the best things I figured out not too long ago is that I am fat. I know it shouldn't have been surprised as I was over 300 pounds! (don't know how much over, my scale tops out at 300 so for awhile my weight was "err") So I decided to get in shape. Well nothing happens as planned. As I am at 6 mos into this thing and only down 8 pounds and frustrated beyond words. Every work out video and plan is for someone that can move; as lots of moving causes me intense pain. I am working with a few different doctors and have some plans. I am hoping one day this struggle will help someone else.

Too Long Time

I realize it has been too long since I posted last. But the good news is that I had my surgery and it went very well and I am recovering well. I do still have some pain some times but no where near the pain I had before surgery. I did stop losing weight with the surgery hitting which is a bummer. I am about 30 lbs from my goal weight and I am hoping that now that I am getting back up to speed for working out (5 days a week 500 calories a day) that the pounds will eventually come off. I have started watching what I eat and tracking it all on My Fitness Pal (great app if you need one to use!) It tracks all my food and tells me how many calories to eat to lose pounds. I am back on a bike now (for the first 3 months after surgery all I did was walk) and that has helped me to work out more. I am excited moving forward and I am making future plans… I am headed back to school in the fall and I am working towards getting out of debt. New hope now that I am out of pain!

It’s coming…

Hip surgery that is. It is what started this journey. Total Hip replacement. I am thoroughly excited and quite nervous but it is coming. Many times I have thought of putting it off until the pain was “worse” a total crippling pain but I feel like I know I have to do it why sit around waiting. So I trudge forward with getting rid of the pain that I do have and moving forward to a place where I can stop planning my day and trips around what I handle for pain. I look forward to hiking and dancing and trips. The start is coming it will still be a long road and I will keep up (better than I have been) with the posts.

Mile Marker… 50

I hit fifty pounds down today. It has been a long road. This isn’t about just eating less, it is about eating right. Protein first!! A chunk of every week is spent prepping and working through what I am going to eat and how I am going to get protein into every meal. I now have a pattern and sometimes I get bored with the meals. But I am learning that routine is important. I eat the same thing day after day and I make sure to keep going to the gym every day. Routine is the heart of change. I am keeping to my new routine and it seems to be working so on to the next day

Dreaded Candy Bowl

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At work we have a candy bowl…. I pass it on my way into work every morning and it is HORRIBLE. The hardest thing to say no to right in my face every morning. And if I by chance make it passed with not eating any of the candy I think of it all day. Sugar really is addictive! And it tastes so good. So I am getting ready for the holiday season by not eating candy every day. I have made 2 days in a row with no candy from the candy bowl. My next goal….3 days hopefully I will get there next week but for now… I had a couple candy corns right after I took the pic lol

Not too old

So I had a surprise root canal yesterday not a great day for me, although I did get out of work. I had to go back a second time yesterday because my temporary crown (ie tooth) broke. I got it replaced and the second one is stronger however it won’t stay in place. So today I stopped at Walgreens and got, wait for it…….fixodent. yes I really feel old now. I need a hip replacement and I am buying fixodent gah!!!!

One Year to the Date…

So a year ago was the worst day of my life. I had circumstances that were not ideal but that wasn’t the what put me over the edge. I knew things would get better I just didn’t want to wait for that time. So I made a plan… I was going to stop at a liquor store go home and down a bottle of pills with a bottle of booze. Thankfully I pulled over on the side of the road instead and called my counselor. She convinced me to drive to my friends house and we decided that I would go into the hospital. Now here I am a year later and I can’t say that I have always been happy to get through this but things are better now. I am so very thankful for the people that have gotten me through the last year, because I know that it takes a community.

Just waiting

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I am in a waiting state now. The big rush is over I am in a time where life just is. Nothing new to report . I feel like I have already hit my place of life where this has become the normal way to eat and live. I now know when to get to the gym and how much to eat. It is a surreal place. I am not anywhere near my goal weight but I am down almost 40 pounds. It doesn’t seem real. I am two pant sizes down and look a whole lot better but I am still big and still have a ways to go. I know I just have to keep up to good fight and keep going even though I am ready to be at a point where I say I am done and can stop this diet. But it’s not a diet and this is going on for the rest of my life. Much harder than I envisioned. So I take each day just as a day and don’t think about the rest of my life just the next meal which is in a few hours and going to be very small!!

Just waiting

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I am in a waiting state now. The big rush is over I am in a time where life just is. Nothing new to report . I feel like I have already hit my place of life where this has become the normal way to eat and live. I now know when to get to the gym and how much to eat. It is a surreal place. I am not anywhere near my goal weight but I am down almost 40 pounds. It doesn’t seem real. I am two pant sizes down and look a whole lot better but I am still big and still have a ways to go. I know I just have to keep up to good fight and keep going even though I am ready to be at a point where I say I am done and can stop this diet. But it’s not a diet and this is going on for the rest of my life. Much harder than I envisioned. So I take each day just as a day and don’t think about the rest of my life just the next meal which is in a few hours and going to be very small!!

34 down

I don’t know what it is but 30 was a milestone for me. I think the thought of all that I have to lose is too much and so it has to be broken up into small (bite size if you will) pieces; and 30 was the first bite.

Next goal….45 and I want to hit it before the month is out. which means… I need to keep to the better foods (PROTEIN first) eating the smaller portions are easy I just can’t fit the food I used to 🙂 but it is real easy to have something “good” but not “good for me”.  I think this is where I am getting into trouble. Now don’t get me wrong I am still losing 3 pounds a week and that is pretty good. I do think I could do better and am hoping for it!