Work it out


So they want you workingout as much as possible. My gym is only open Monday thru Friday so I try to make it every day. My choice recumbent bike (the kind you look like you are sitting in a chair) such a great choice! I can even read a book while I bike. I have also started pulling in weights this week. The dedication I need blows me away. It is hard getting out there so much but I need to remember it will be worth it and maybe someday I will love it!



I now can eat whatever I want. The rules are to get a certain amount of protein and water. This is actually the hardest part. I am no longer being told what to eat and I have to do it for the rest of my life. I am down 31 pounds total and bumbling my way through what to eat. Food costs stayed the same because I am eating less but more expensive food. My crockpot has come in very handy and it provides enough food for two weeks I just have to eat the same thing every day! But it is a good starting point. This is a learning curve that has been a challenge more than not but will be worth it. That is what I remind myself I have a purpose for this. I also have been making it to the gym 5 days a week and started adding weights yesterday beginning slow at one day a week one rep of everything! It’s a baby step but a step all the same.

What Would You Eat???

I am coming up on my 6 weeks since surgery (Monday is the day) and the food restrictions come off!!! What would you eat? I am planning out my food for next week and I am getting excited. Top of the list is steak! I am thinking Chipolte steak taco (probably just one 😉 If I had all the money in the world it would be Texas Roadhouse! Ummmmmm Steak good stuff…

Also… Ice cream sundaes ummmmm ice cream

I am nervous about trying to figure out what to eat now. They have been great at telling me every step of the way so I am hoping that they give good advice and ideas. Also considering going to  a support group for Sleevers to explore this new and wonderous world and so it begins….

Stalled Out

So they told me between weeks 3 – 6 my weight loss would stall… and here it is… It blows chunks!!! I think this is the part where people start to think “why the h-e-double hockey sticks did I do this???” I am eating nothing but protein and at that only 4 oz and I am losing NOTHING it’s not fair!!!!! (That was my two year old whiny voice right there!)

food is about the same

– chili

– chicken salad (with avocado because who just wants canned chicken and mayo??)

– pudding (because I can)

– black beans and ground beef (with a little cheese melted on it)

– Refried beans

– greek yogurt

-egg whites


Glad I don’t really get bored of food…. ok I get a little bored but what’s a girl to do, I don’t want to work at it 😉

I am drinking lots of water and working out (shooting for 5 times a week!)

Moving Forward

I am up to soft foods. I get to eat canned chicken, refried beans, string cheese, ground beef, avocado, and black beans to name a few. This is a really exciting time and I feel like I am accomplishing a lot. I am learning a lot as well. I am working hard on making protein first. Right now it is soft proteins. I am spending more time focused on eating than I ever have in my life. I think it is going to be a big part of my life for awhile until I get this figured out.

Food right now

– black beans, ground beef, avocado and cheese

– greek yogurt


-beef jerky nuggets

-string cheese

to name a few.

I have also worked hard on getting to the gym 5 days a week for at least 30 mins




Week 1

DSC02317I opted to stay with my grandmother for the first week after surgery. It  was a nice oasis and great to get away. I read 3 books and drank all my meals. It was a bit brutal when grandma would ask if I could eat different things, and I had to keep telling her NO. But I made it through the first week with just eating protein shakes and resting. My reward was I lost 12 pounds…


These two photos are one week apart and I am so excited!! I went in for my one week appointment and they said I am healing well and things are going well. For the next two weeks I get to eat some foods…

– Refried Beans

– Greek Yogurt

– Egg Whites

– Sugar Free Pudding

– Cottage Cheese (which I don’t like)

But such sweet succulent  meals I feel like they are amazing!!

Hospital Stay

So this is about 2 weeks out from surgery and it is but a memory now. Day of was very long I got there early (with no food from like 6pm the night before) and had to wait ALL DAY LONG. I didn’t go in until about 4:30 in the evening. Needless to say I was starving and going stir crazy having been checked in to the hospital since 8:30 that morning. We (grandma and I) played cards and watched TV and got bored of both. Grandma ended up leaving an hour and a half before I went in (to avoid traffic and night time driving)

Going in for surgery is always interesting. These days they keep you awake as they wheel you into the operating room. I don’t know if this is supposed to give you a sense of comfort or if they just want you to move yourself to the operating table. Either way it is kind of eerie. After getting onto the operating table I don’t remember too much they hooked me up to a bunch of different machines and I was out.

The best part of waking up from the surgery was I had a pain drip, every 10 mins I could administer pain meds myself. Apparently the surgery went well (so everyone says) and I was up and walking just a few short hours after. I did have to take swallows for the contrast xrays (nasty stuff) but with no leaks I was able to start drinking. I got an ounce of water and an ounce of ice chips every hour. How lucky was I?!?!?!

I am pretty sure I started losing weight right away as I hadn’t eaten any kind of food for over 24 hours.

My best friend came to visit me in the hospital and helped me take my first unsteady steps. But I was walking in no time and talking on the phone with my mom; and by that point it was 11 at night.

The next morning I got to start “eating” or rather drinking clear protein shakes (still only once ounce at an hour) but it was like manna from heaven. They had me up and walking every couple hours, to keep away the blood clots. By noon I was quite antsy to leave and worked on getting dressed all by myself and taken care of. It was such a relief to get picked up by my roommate and I was so excited to be leaving with my clear protein, pain medicationDSC02319, and breathing apparatus.DSC02318


Independence Day

Today is the 4th of July!!! Happy Birthday America.

As I reflect on independence I also think of being a slave to things like my health and my body. So that makes me excited that this weekend is my first step in the process of independence from all of that. With every sip of clear liquid (yes two full days of only see through liquids) I try to remember that it is moving me closer. I rejoice as this is the beginning of my story of Independence.

I look forward to being free…

To walk, to play, to dance, to be who I want to be.

A Little Bit Closer


My first purchase towards surgery….after care. I can’t believe I am only two weeks away. Thoughts and feelings are excitement and fear not sure which is stronger but I am very thankful for the people in my life that keep reminding me that I can do this.
I am currently nervous about getting enough protein in my diet. I need 65-80 grams a day. I don’t even know what this is equivalent to which might be some of the fear. The other is bite size sounds ridiculous, I know, but they are supposed to be really small and I haven’t been practicing; which brings me to the next. Water not enough water is being consumed and when I do I take bug gulps and drink more than 2oz at a time. I need to get working!!

Looking Through the Glass

On Saturday I start my clear liquids leading up to surgery.  For two days I get to “eat” only things that you can see through…. So for two days I get to eat broth, Jello (yipee), and Isopure with apple juice as a topper! I have to actually make it through a day of work and a day off (where I will be packing everything for the hospital and the week after). Probably sleeping a lot to get my mind off the fact that I am not eating properly!!

It has also been quite the money adventure. My liquid vitamins were approximately $100 and just spent another $50 on my clear liquids! It will be about $75 for the week after surgery (actually pretty good for a week’s worth of food) and then  the fun starts.

I have had all my “lasts” pretty much getting in crazy things like brie and a loaf of bread, or Italian Nachos from Old Chicago, Noodles and Co (and I can now see why I am fat 😉 ), cheesecake and cupcakes are also on the list; and yes I did gain another 7 lbs gearing up for surgery!!