I hit fifty pounds down today. It has been a long road. This isn’t about just eating less, it is about eating right. Protein first!! A chunk of every week is spent prepping and working through what I am going to eat and how I am going to get protein into every meal. I now have a pattern and sometimes I get bored with the meals. But I am learning that routine is important. I eat the same thing day after day and I make sure to keep going to the gym every day. Routine is the heart of change. I am keeping to my new routine and it seems to be working so on to the next day
At work we have a candy bowl…. I pass it on my way into work every morning and it is HORRIBLE. The hardest thing to say no to right in my face every morning. And if I by chance make it passed with not eating any of the candy I think of it all day. Sugar really is addictive! And it tastes so good. So I am getting ready for the holiday season by not eating candy every day. I have made 2 days in a row with no candy from the candy bowl. My next goal….3 days hopefully I will get there next week but for now… I had a couple candy corns right after I took the pic lol
So a year ago was the worst day of my life. I had circumstances that were not ideal but that wasn’t the what put me over the edge. I knew things would get better I just didn’t want to wait for that time. So I made a plan… I was going to stop at a liquor store go home and down a bottle of pills with a bottle of booze. Thankfully I pulled over on the side of the road instead and called my counselor. She convinced me to drive to my friends house and we decided that I would go into the hospital. Now here I am a year later and I can’t say that I have always been happy to get through this but things are better now. I am so very thankful for the people that have gotten me through the last year, because I know that it takes a community.
I started a goal board I decided it helps for me to see where I am going…ny main goal is at the bottom…. Become a bad ass…the upper right corner is my priority list the bottom right…I how many day since my last hospital stay… I am going to do this the thing that makes me so sure that after years of trying (about 13) I am going to make it this time. Support!!! I have someone every day checking on me..ya know spread out the love!!